We all have one thing that gives us pain, and that one thing that we have within us is also the thing that we are not looking at as anything BUT that thing that gives us our pain. When we are in pain, we are in our darkness. Our darkness is not what we have been told it is. Our darkness is a tool, not an impediment
“You never listen to the voices inside
They fill your ears as you run to a place to hide
You’re never sure if the illusion is real
You pinch yourself but the memories are all you feel”
(From Billy Squier’s “In The Dark”)
It is the one thing that not all Workers of The Light are very well ready to deal with. It is the one thing that we are taught to get a handle on, but it is also the one thing that we are not told, even as we are taught, is meant to help us rather than continue to hurt us.
In fact, it is with dear and dire glee that I write this today, because of this one thing that I happened to happen upon in terms of what we are supposed to do with our darkness.
Our darkness is the one thing in our toolbox that we alone are meant to use, not for the purpose of hurting others, but for the purpose of making things right and bringing balance to horribly unbalanced situations in the tangible world. The Darkness within us is NOT there to scare us, even though because of it, we are fearful. Our Darkness has kept us safe to this point, because that is what it was meant for – to keep children, when we are children, safe. It is the fear within us, and is conjured as the things that we don’t want to deal with or to look at, mixed with that one thing that we all want to do, no matter what that one thing is and according to each of our life paths.
For example, I have a soul twin. I call her “Gator.” I also have a twin flame. I call him “Maestro.” For each of these two people, there is an opposite light to the darkness that is within me that each of these two people represent in opposition to what it is that I already have experienced. While it is that I work with Gator, I help Maestro work on himself, using his own measure of Darkness, much as when I work with Gator, it is the combined energy between two like souls that is where the power and the healing energy is at.
You read that right – it is contained within the pain energy that resides within you as physical pain.
My Soul Brother, Greg
Typically I won’t name names, but in this one instance, I have to, because …well, just because. The things that Gator, Greg and I have in common is not only that we gravitate toward The Weirdness, but that we all know each others’ pain, even as we have no clue as to what to do with it.
Okay, so NOW I know what to do with it, and had I not explained it to my soul Brother, Greg, while he, himself, is ailing, I might not also be here finally, after about three weeks of not writing this blog, writing what I happened upon. Understand that this is just my own thought about it, and is only my own theory in that, whatever it is that is hurting us, that one thing and the energy, specifically, created from it, is meant for us to use as one of our tools for healing and bringing balance back to our lives, no matter what that balance, in our heads, appears to be.
What that balance, in our heads, appears to be
I won’t state here for the world to see and to know what that balance is represented by for me. What I will state is that when I was told that the way that I wanted it could not be in the manner nor the energy that I was living in at the time, it made no sense to me why it was that the thing that I saw, which was the thing that other healers also saw and could not wrap their heads around as to the reason why it could not happen at that time for me while I was in that energy.
Well, there are a whole lot of reasons why, and all of them link back to that thing called Karma. When we do things from a place of pain, and we are sitting smack dab in the middle of that pain, we are also in a very heightened emotional state of being in every manner. When we are trying to bring balance for ourselves or trying to teach others that same thing, if we are overly emotional about it, or, if the thing we know we need but can do nothing about at that time is not what we need to do right then and there, there is ALWAYS going to be a reason, and typically that reason is because of the “why” it needs to be the way that we “see” it in our heads.
For me, the thing that I ‘see” constantly in my head is “the end of things” where one other person who is not named here and will not be named anywhere, is concerned. Those who need to know, know, and the rest of you can sit back and know that it is by this one example that I know I am right. If we are kept in the darkness that is our own long enough to have to seek our own light, we will end up seeing our own light because our own light will come to us when we need to it shine onto someone else’s darkness. Other peoples’ darkness is NOT ours to take on, but it is there and we are allowed to observe it. What I have observed over the last seven years is that when we are at the lowest point that we can consciously perceive, Spirit will always take us deeper into that one thing, and She does it so that we can completely understand why this darkness exists and why it is that we have to study it.
I had to study it because, as Kahuna, I have to traverse both the Light and the Darkness in others, and if I do not know how to face my own, I cannot help other people balance theirs. This is not my rule. This is the law of the Universe. If we choose to strike out with whatever it is that we are feeling at any given moment and we give into our pain without thinking, a whole lot of bullshit WILL happen, and while it is that you might be able to get yourself out of that bullshit, you might not realize the bullshit that you have caused for other people. We can think of other people who are NOT the people we are pissed at and who are not the people who hurt us the most, as being collateral damage. We do not need that sort of damage.
When we are in emotional pain, it is not too long afterwards, if we do not know what to do with that pain or how to use it correctly, that we will also be in physical pain. I know this one personally. I see an actual medical doctor for it, but in no way am I taking anything she prescribes, and it is because I don’t do pills well. Not only that, something has been “telling” me all these years that this pain and all of its technicalities are meant for me to use. I just did not know how, or why.
I do now.
It has to be done with a LOT of thought behind it, and it must address the entirety of the situation, where the one thing that is common to everything in that imbalance is the one thing that needs to be addressed. Now, when it is addressed, there are two ways that a person can go about it – the right way, or, the other way. Most folks who are Workers of The Light and who are not ready to look at things in this manner will always and only go toward the light. Once it is that they have figured out what it is about their darkness that scares them so badly is when it is that the greater understanding of why it exists will be revealed. It is not until this point where ALL Workers of The Light will be called upon to make this decision – to do, or not to do – that one thing that we all know needs to be done, which is simply to restore balance.
Restoring balance is not something that has only one face on it. It can be many things, and all of it will have the same signature to it. No matter what, where it is that the Universe DEMANDS things to be made right, things, no matter what, again, will be made right. The times that it will not automatically be made right are those times where what it is that we WANT to do cannot be done right that moment, because right that moment when we are highly emotional is the WRONG moment to do anything.
Doing anything about it comes far later, when you are no longer emotionally attached to one outcome, when you can take it or leave it, the way that things turn out, so long as they turn out for the benefit of all involved. If there was hurt involved, the best thing to do is walk away. When you walk away and they follow, you know that once it is that you get over it and over the ego’s emotional response to it all…THEN is when you can do something about it, because then is when you will be thinking clearly about things and will be able to come up with a viable, doable, acceptable means by which you can balance the energies.
When you have pain that persists, the one thing that no doctor is going to tell you is to examine the roots of that pain emotionally. That is where we who are Workers of The Light exist – in the energy field of emotions, and because of this one thing, we have to be cautious with the tools that we are given, that we hone and sharpen for our use.
Yes…even when people are shitty to us…especially when they are shitty to us.
Yes…Yes I WILL Marry You !!
…even if you’re gay…
…even if you think you can’t afford a cool wedding…
Hit me up…we can think of something
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