TRUTH. It is that thing that we want from others, and that thing that we know we are good at. It is also that thing that needs to be believable if we are to convince ourselves that it is a Truth.
If you were to read the descriptions of what other people say about the Sun Sign, Pisces, you would imagine that anyone with that Sun Sign is doomed to a life of everyone picking on them and that they will absolutely be someone who is going to be like the fly in the potato salad.
Yet, lots of people who know me personally would say otherwise. They would tell you what they have told me – that I am fiery (I should be…I have a Leo Ascendant), that even if I am quiet, I am still not taking anyone’s shit (Moon in Taurus…meaning that I really will take your shit that you cause for me very personally and I might get very angry…), that when I say something, I mean it, and that I am not scared to tell anyone what is on my mind, should the situation warrant it.
Of course, none of this was I able to figure out until I started asking me questions about the validity of anyone else’s crap. The things that we do in this lifetime are meant to rebuild this place, from the rubble, up. WE are the rubble, for the most part, and that which we have to build is consciousness and life as we all know it. What we are experiencing now is the shattering of unbelievable truths that were once truths, but that no longer fit in the times that are ahead of us.
So, to make things a little bit less…scathing…I thought I might give you all a refresher in terms of how it is that the LOA works, specifically the part that is the truths we tell ourselves and what it is that we are willing to believe versus what it is that we are simply just bullshitting ourselves with – yes, even the shitty shit. And yes, the way that it works totally relates to what I am writing today, because the one thing that we each and all need to draw to ourselves and to our lives are the very rightest types of people who we will need in order to be live our purpose and fulfill our mission.
For instance, I knew back in the early nineties, even though we were both a horrid rock and roll mess, who I belonged with. The way that I knew this was simply because I could not seem to shake the feeling that this person upon whom I happened held some sort of secret that I needed to find out more about. So, for twenty years, I sought them out, and throughout the years, I simply held the belief that I would find them.
I found them, and my life has not been the same since.
While it is that things outside of that one thing and that one person have the propensity to make me sometimes want to not wake up from sleeping, with that one other person I know, because it is believable, that I am perfectly safe and that no matter what the rest of the world wants me to believe, this is my truth about them, because they have not shown me anything else than that I am very, very safe, very protected, very cherished.
However, there is still the matter of the twenty years between when I was still looking for that person. I still have to wade through the mess that someone else…a few someone else’s…made of and for me, and I still have to accept that all of the horrible things that I have heard about myself by these people over the course of a lifetime are NOT the truth. They are not the truth because in order for them to be the truth I have to believe them.
In fact, everything that we hear and see are subject to our approval. We are not obligated to believe the horrible things that we hear about ourselves, no matter how many times in the past we might have displayed emotions that would cause someone else to say what they would about us. What none of us thinks about is that in order for what anyone else has to say to be our truth, we have to believe it.
Not everything that anyone or even everyone else has to say about us is the truth and it doesn’t have to be – we are, through our willingness to believe the bad things that others tell us about us- the reason why those things become our truths…because we let them be.
This is not my being an asshole about things, or me telling you one more thing is your “fault.” It is my saying that by the end of having read this, you will know why, in part, any one of us goes through what we go through and why sometimes we get exactly what we want, and why, more we times, we end up disappointed.
We are not thinking about the idea that maybe those who would say ugly things about us are in their own turmoil and that their personal turmoil, even though they are not showing it (because they have been like this for so long that how they are is their version of normal…) is what we are experiencing when they say what they have, what they will, and what they do. We don’t think that way, because the way that we do think is the way that we have been conditioned to think. If we have only heard, again and again, from very significant people in our lives,how it is that we need to fix something about ourselves because someone else said we make them feel a certain way – that is not about us, but about THEM.
Thing is, we are meant to go through what it is that we are currently going through, and for one reason – so that that which is believable is believed, and that that which is NOT believable, is not. Reread that. Wrap your head around it. The reason that I believe we go through the turmoil that we go through is so that we have something to believe in about ourselves. This moment in time is one that is very important. It is so because inside of it we have the opportunity, like we do with any moment, to change, or start to change, our thoughts. The trick is producing believable thoughts.
All of us have those times in our lives when we are not able to believe something that we are thinking. This is because the thoughts that we think are not always or only our own. We are magnetic in nature, and this means that some of us are going to pick up on the thoughts of the collective, and that we all have the ability to do this.
Within the thoughts of the collective are thoughts that none of us would think about ourselves. When we do not know whose thoughts are whose, and we do not have the steps to take in order to discern between whose thoughts are whose (in other words – the thoughts that we think, versus the thoughts that someone else very close to us think and that we are able to feel, or hear, or see, and then haven’t any idea of how to discern which of those thoughts are our own and which of those thoughts are someone close to us or if it is indeed the thought and energy of the collective whole), we end up thinking thoughts that are not our own, and eventually taking on those energies. (This is how the gift of mediumship becomes apparent in some of us more than in others, particularly water signs…keep reading)
Lots of those thoughts are not believable ones. Lots of those thoughts are mere opinions that, if a person is highly sensitive (I am), if that person does not know how to discern between what is their own and what is someone else’s, the likelihood of them believing a thought that is not theirs is very good. Add to that the thoughts that were deliberately planted into a person’s brain at a young age and then were repeatedly given to them over the course of their lives, what you will have is someone with a believable thought, and a thought that is detrimental in nature.
Okay…now I want you to think about that last thing and think of a few people who have, since the time that you were little, planted thoughts in your head that you have, for years, believed as the truth. Think about every time that you were able to dismiss their “truth” through evidence brought to you by others or even by Spirit, and now think about that person or those people coming back and repeating those thoughts to you. When we believe their thoughts versus our own truths that we know are the truth, and we waver from our truth, we end up doing something called “getting in our own way.”
Not a lot of people knows what it means when somone tells them that they “in their own damned way,” but I do, and I am going to tell you what that means right now.
When we want something badly, what we are really doing, in those thoughts, even the ones that we deny, is showing ourselves a mental picture, NOT of the person or the thing or the situation that we want with them, but the things that we are most desirous of. Reread that and let it soak in. This is not my telling anyone that if we put our eyes on someone who we think we could get something going with, that it is just going to happen. Not at all. What it means is that we now have a symbol in our heads for the thing or situation that we want, and the initial thing (or person or situation) is sort of like a bookmark, NOT for the actual thing, but for the energy that it gives us derived from the thoughts that we think about that one thing.
The other part, the harder part, is that we are open and aware of all of our thoughts. This means that even the shitty things that we have heard are still there and that those shitty thoughts have the same propensity that the newer, good thoughts have. The problem with the shitty thing(s) is that the shitty things have a way of sticking in our heads longer, and with lots more strength, than do the other, better, more believable thoughts, particularly about who we are for real. Who we are for real is not someone else’s to create for us, but, without our realizing so, we allow their opinions become our truths, and it is because we end up believing, through all of the thoughts that are planted in us by others, what is the bad, and we don’t even think about the good things, because again- we have not been taught that way. We have only been taught to conform to what others want and expect from us, and in kind, due to our lifetime worth of training, we comply.
*takes a breath*
Now since you know this much, you have the thing that you needed to know as to why it is that we draw who and what we do to our lives. It really is not just because we are somehow not perfect, but because of the things that we willingly believe are the truth of us as set forth in us by others. The way to combat that is to form new thoughts. This is no easy task. Lots of times it takes someone to help us create those new thoughts. More times it is not just the need to create them, but also to be taught how to believe them using only the things that were presented to us that are not believable.
So, for starters, the things that you have been taught and told your entire life long are likely the reason why it is that you might be having issues right now with drawing things to you that you need. It is because you do not believe that you will have them. You believe you won’t because someone told you that you are not worthy of those things, and so instead of going with the path of least effort, all of us chooses to try to prove someone else wrong when all we really have to do is prove our own selves right.
With that last thing, because it is a new thought about your old thought regarding proving someone else wrong, you have been given a tool – the thought that you only have to prove yourself right rather than trying to convince someone else that you are not wrong – is a good example of how this all works. Please think on these two things (1) Proving someone else wrong…versus (2) proving only yourself to be right…
Thinking about the first one, I am betting that you have a tightness in your gut right now and it is not very comfortable. This is your gut reaction. It is open to your questioning of it, and is open to your just actualy letting it go.
Thinking about that second one, I am betting that there is a bit of trepidatious warmth there that right now, you are not trusting, because you do not believe it, even though the warmth is what is telling you that you ought to believe it because it is your own truth that you know IS true…
Remember that feeling, specifically, because it will be your guide as to what you are more willing to believe. Understand now that soetimes, that feeling is subject to be questioned, but that is not for right now. Just learn from your own bodily signals what is, and what is not, your truth.
You may well end up believing your own truth…it is worth a shot to find out, right?